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Jun. 7th, 2013 11:23 amI am having a weird day.
I just ate an avocado, which upgraded my day from "bad" to just "weird." But it's weird. Can't really explain it, other than I'm in a shitty mood for no good reason.
One thing I've started to notice about myself is that ever since I've been medicated, the things that upset me the most (the only things that upset me, really?) are issues of vanity. And I'm not handling them as well as I'd like...as well as I know I am capable. I know I'm awesome at working out hard and pushing my body and getting great results...but I haven't felt like doing that much lately. And I'm pissed at myself because of it. And my blog is very boring when I'm obsessing over what to do at the gym while also kind of majorly not really wanting to do jack shit. Grumble.
McKenzie has the car out of town for the next 10 days, so I'll be relying on my bike to get around. This time last year, I loved riding my bike all the time. Right now I'm kind of like, ugh, getting to and from work next week is going to SUCK. I wish I could flip the switch back to where I loved riding my bike to and from work and chose to do it even when I didn't have to.
The therapist I saw a few weeks ago has been traveling and we haven't had our second session yet, but I do intend to continue seeing her. I wish I knew when the next appointment could be, because I feel like I kinda need it right now...
I just ate an avocado, which upgraded my day from "bad" to just "weird." But it's weird. Can't really explain it, other than I'm in a shitty mood for no good reason.
One thing I've started to notice about myself is that ever since I've been medicated, the things that upset me the most (the only things that upset me, really?) are issues of vanity. And I'm not handling them as well as I'd like...as well as I know I am capable. I know I'm awesome at working out hard and pushing my body and getting great results...but I haven't felt like doing that much lately. And I'm pissed at myself because of it. And my blog is very boring when I'm obsessing over what to do at the gym while also kind of majorly not really wanting to do jack shit. Grumble.
McKenzie has the car out of town for the next 10 days, so I'll be relying on my bike to get around. This time last year, I loved riding my bike all the time. Right now I'm kind of like, ugh, getting to and from work next week is going to SUCK. I wish I could flip the switch back to where I loved riding my bike to and from work and chose to do it even when I didn't have to.
The therapist I saw a few weeks ago has been traveling and we haven't had our second session yet, but I do intend to continue seeing her. I wish I knew when the next appointment could be, because I feel like I kinda need it right now...
