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jianantonicI really enjoy situations where I get to "play Mom." So far these situations have lasted no more than a few hours, so it's not like it's anything like real parenthood, a lifestyle I'm still quite certain is not for me. But I do love being the responsible adult. Indraneel was feeling shitty at school today, so he had the nurse call his folks to pick him up. They couldn't make it very quickly, so they called me and asked me to get him. The school is walking distance from their house, so it was no problem. I got a real rush out of going into the office and saying "I'm here to pick up my nephew." I mean I feel bad for the kid -- he's feeling like dookie -- but it was really cool for me to get to play that role. As long as he's not puking.
I also really love doing things like cutting Frankie's pancakes for her, or taking Lucy out for ice cream. Just quick little adult-child adventures where I get to be the doting caregiver.
These simple pleasures are new with my Prozac. I've always liked my nieces but never really found joy in the guardian part of my role. But lately I've been really enjoying kids in general. I'd still rather be in adults-only environments for the most part, but kids just don't test my patience the way they did when I was depressed, and there really is something life-affirming about forming a bond with a child.
All that said, I am quite satisfied with the current levels of munchkin time in my life. I still don't want to be a mom, but I am enjoying the fulfillment I get out of substituting for a parent from time to time.
I also really love doing things like cutting Frankie's pancakes for her, or taking Lucy out for ice cream. Just quick little adult-child adventures where I get to be the doting caregiver.
These simple pleasures are new with my Prozac. I've always liked my nieces but never really found joy in the guardian part of my role. But lately I've been really enjoying kids in general. I'd still rather be in adults-only environments for the most part, but kids just don't test my patience the way they did when I was depressed, and there really is something life-affirming about forming a bond with a child.
All that said, I am quite satisfied with the current levels of munchkin time in my life. I still don't want to be a mom, but I am enjoying the fulfillment I get out of substituting for a parent from time to time.
