The Return.
Feb. 4th, 2012 10:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicI will be playing in my first bridge tournament in almost a year starting a week from today. It's a sectional in NE Washington, so I'm hardly throwing myself back into the scene all at once, but there are a few larger tournaments right after that, followed by the Memphis NABC in March. My feelings, they are mixed.
In something like an order of importance:
1. I am really, really excited to get back to playing regularly. I love bridge, and I love my bridge friends.
2. I'm going to have to rebuild my game, and spend some time sucking, and that's going to be frustrating to me. I still play regularly on BBO, but that's not enough to keep one's skills on the up and up, and I've already tasted a lot of the frustration that's to come. Hopefully it won't last long.
3. I'm going to see some people I really don't want to see. Since I haven't seen any of them in over a year, it remains to be seen what sort of effect this will have on me. I'm in a good place now and I'm not worried about a meltdown or anything...but I just don't know how I'll feel, you know? The best analogy I can think of is that it will be like spending a great deal of time in close proximity to the family that you've severed ties with.
I always appreciated my nomadic, card-throwing life...I just didn't handle it well the first time around. I really am excited to get back, even though it will probably mean some new (old) things to talk about with my therapist from time to time.
In something like an order of importance:
1. I am really, really excited to get back to playing regularly. I love bridge, and I love my bridge friends.
2. I'm going to have to rebuild my game, and spend some time sucking, and that's going to be frustrating to me. I still play regularly on BBO, but that's not enough to keep one's skills on the up and up, and I've already tasted a lot of the frustration that's to come. Hopefully it won't last long.
3. I'm going to see some people I really don't want to see. Since I haven't seen any of them in over a year, it remains to be seen what sort of effect this will have on me. I'm in a good place now and I'm not worried about a meltdown or anything...but I just don't know how I'll feel, you know? The best analogy I can think of is that it will be like spending a great deal of time in close proximity to the family that you've severed ties with.
I always appreciated my nomadic, card-throwing life...I just didn't handle it well the first time around. I really am excited to get back, even though it will probably mean some new (old) things to talk about with my therapist from time to time.
