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Mar. 14th, 2012 09:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicLife is a combination of delightfully joyful and overwhelmingly stressful right now, so let's blog about it!
I'm still glowing from my trip to New York. Folks keep adding their photos to Facebook, and looking at them makes me happy. I especially love love love this one of Seth and me at Church Korner:
The looks on our faces, and the looks on the faces of the muppets on our t-shirts, are so genuinely happy that I get warm fuzzies just looking at it. Aww. It was also such an honor and a joy to be there to see some of Sethy's very first performances as a singer/songwriter. I've been there for many a jam, singing and bopping along, but he really took it to the next level (or several levels higher, really) when he got up in front of our audience to perform his own music. 1, he's really good at it, and that in itself makes it grand, but 2, he feels it SO MUCH, and that is contagious. I love it when music puts emotions into you, and Seth's does that. Partly because of the content, and partly because of its delivery. I feel very special to be a part of it, especially here at the very beginning of something I suspect will grow beautifully.
My time with my family was equally spectacular. I had a lot of time to hang out with Rachel, and I feel like the two of us grew a lot closer over my time there. I really love having her for a sister-in-law. And my nieces! They're so great, and I've already said so much about them...they're so easy to love. Lucy has really mellowed over the last few years, evolving from a bitch with attitude to a sweet, intelligent, doting oldest sister. She and Frankie still have their quarrels, but they adore each other anyway, and it was really touching to see how sweet she was with Bess. Frankie is turning into a real smartass, in the most adorable way. She is very intelligent for sure, and very loving. She has some holy terrors of temper tantrums, but she'll probably grow out of that, and when she's not flipping out, she's completely wonderful. Every morning I was there, she would wake me up by crawling into bed with me and giving me hugs. I also got lots of random hugs from her throughout each day, and she would occasionally ask me to pick her up and hug her as tight as I could. Bess is an infant, and does infant things, and it's no effort at all to love her dearly -- I am sure I will only love her more as she develops her personality. I can certainly relate to her as the baby of the family, and I have visions of being very close with her as she grows up. Just like I hope to be close with all of my nieces and nephews. I miss Jack!
I did not follow WW at all in New York, so I'm a little stressed about backsliding on that front, especially now that I have two more weeks on the road before I can really get back to a place where I am comfortable with the amount of control I have over my diet and schedule. But I certainly got lots of walking in while I was in NYC, and I had a really nice treadmill run last night, so I think I'll be fine. I'm just nervous about it because I'm a vain little girl.
I also have this kind of huge deadline to meet this week, and while it's an easy project and shouldn't be any trouble, there is the matter of finding the time to get it done, as well as the motivation. I have plenty of time today, for instance, to probably finish the whole thing, but am I doing that? Not yet! I will get to it, but it remains to be seen how much progress I will make. If it weren't for the last minute, nothing would ever get done, and it's not the last minute for a few more days. But I'll have a lot less free time then...
That deadline is the main stress, but then there's also the fact that bridge players are starting to show up, and this tournament will be in full swing in about 30 hours. I'm optimistic that it's possible to get through this NABC with minimal drama, and really, there is nothing currently going on with me to warrant any drama. It's just that it is the first time I will be seeing lots of people since the last major drama I had with them, and who knows what feelings that will stir up. Feelings or no, I do plan to keep the interactions low-key. But I imagine I will have some new things to talk about in therapy soon.
I'm still glowing from my trip to New York. Folks keep adding their photos to Facebook, and looking at them makes me happy. I especially love love love this one of Seth and me at Church Korner:
The looks on our faces, and the looks on the faces of the muppets on our t-shirts, are so genuinely happy that I get warm fuzzies just looking at it. Aww. It was also such an honor and a joy to be there to see some of Sethy's very first performances as a singer/songwriter. I've been there for many a jam, singing and bopping along, but he really took it to the next level (or several levels higher, really) when he got up in front of our audience to perform his own music. 1, he's really good at it, and that in itself makes it grand, but 2, he feels it SO MUCH, and that is contagious. I love it when music puts emotions into you, and Seth's does that. Partly because of the content, and partly because of its delivery. I feel very special to be a part of it, especially here at the very beginning of something I suspect will grow beautifully.
My time with my family was equally spectacular. I had a lot of time to hang out with Rachel, and I feel like the two of us grew a lot closer over my time there. I really love having her for a sister-in-law. And my nieces! They're so great, and I've already said so much about them...they're so easy to love. Lucy has really mellowed over the last few years, evolving from a bitch with attitude to a sweet, intelligent, doting oldest sister. She and Frankie still have their quarrels, but they adore each other anyway, and it was really touching to see how sweet she was with Bess. Frankie is turning into a real smartass, in the most adorable way. She is very intelligent for sure, and very loving. She has some holy terrors of temper tantrums, but she'll probably grow out of that, and when she's not flipping out, she's completely wonderful. Every morning I was there, she would wake me up by crawling into bed with me and giving me hugs. I also got lots of random hugs from her throughout each day, and she would occasionally ask me to pick her up and hug her as tight as I could. Bess is an infant, and does infant things, and it's no effort at all to love her dearly -- I am sure I will only love her more as she develops her personality. I can certainly relate to her as the baby of the family, and I have visions of being very close with her as she grows up. Just like I hope to be close with all of my nieces and nephews. I miss Jack!
I did not follow WW at all in New York, so I'm a little stressed about backsliding on that front, especially now that I have two more weeks on the road before I can really get back to a place where I am comfortable with the amount of control I have over my diet and schedule. But I certainly got lots of walking in while I was in NYC, and I had a really nice treadmill run last night, so I think I'll be fine. I'm just nervous about it because I'm a vain little girl.
I also have this kind of huge deadline to meet this week, and while it's an easy project and shouldn't be any trouble, there is the matter of finding the time to get it done, as well as the motivation. I have plenty of time today, for instance, to probably finish the whole thing, but am I doing that? Not yet! I will get to it, but it remains to be seen how much progress I will make. If it weren't for the last minute, nothing would ever get done, and it's not the last minute for a few more days. But I'll have a lot less free time then...
That deadline is the main stress, but then there's also the fact that bridge players are starting to show up, and this tournament will be in full swing in about 30 hours. I'm optimistic that it's possible to get through this NABC with minimal drama, and really, there is nothing currently going on with me to warrant any drama. It's just that it is the first time I will be seeing lots of people since the last major drama I had with them, and who knows what feelings that will stir up. Feelings or no, I do plan to keep the interactions low-key. But I imagine I will have some new things to talk about in therapy soon.
