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Jul. 11th, 2012 10:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicI'm doing better than I was last night. Still stressed, but not freaking out. It will either work out or it won't. If it doesn't, I'll be sad for a while, but then we'll go back to looking. And it will be fine. We don't have to be in a hurry. But...I do really want this to work out.
Basically, the only way we can get approved for a loan is if my job turns into a salaried position (it might, but no timeline on that), or if my parents give us the loan. I'm barking up the parental tree today, and they're being receptive, but we'll see. I basically have to get an answer from them in the next few hours or it's a no-go, and I'm sure they love that. (A no-go for this particular property, not for everything ever.)
I'm frustrated and upset, but at the same time trying to work through those feelings in a constructive way. It was hard for me not to be mad at McKenzie when he wasn't gung-ho about staying up late and scrambling to get shit together. But that was my panic taking over. Even if I have a reason to be mad at him (maybe a little?), it doesn't accomplish anything. It only raises tensions in an already stressful situation. So as satisfying as it can be to be all righteously pissed off, I'm not. And for that alone, I feel like this is a huge accomplishment and I should really celebrate myself. I'm being so mature! Well, in some ways, at least :)
There's also the fact that I procrastinated a lot in getting loan docs together, so I could've known sooner that the loan would be an issue, but idunno, when a broker tells you you're a slam dunk, wouldn't you assume you're probably fine? Well, we all know what happens when you assume... it makes you a big, fat, c-- heh, family in-joke :)
I want this house. I really, really want it. I hope it works out. If it doesn't, though, I will be okay.
Basically, the only way we can get approved for a loan is if my job turns into a salaried position (it might, but no timeline on that), or if my parents give us the loan. I'm barking up the parental tree today, and they're being receptive, but we'll see. I basically have to get an answer from them in the next few hours or it's a no-go, and I'm sure they love that. (A no-go for this particular property, not for everything ever.)
I'm frustrated and upset, but at the same time trying to work through those feelings in a constructive way. It was hard for me not to be mad at McKenzie when he wasn't gung-ho about staying up late and scrambling to get shit together. But that was my panic taking over. Even if I have a reason to be mad at him (maybe a little?), it doesn't accomplish anything. It only raises tensions in an already stressful situation. So as satisfying as it can be to be all righteously pissed off, I'm not. And for that alone, I feel like this is a huge accomplishment and I should really celebrate myself. I'm being so mature! Well, in some ways, at least :)
There's also the fact that I procrastinated a lot in getting loan docs together, so I could've known sooner that the loan would be an issue, but idunno, when a broker tells you you're a slam dunk, wouldn't you assume you're probably fine? Well, we all know what happens when you assume... it makes you a big, fat, c-- heh, family in-joke :)
I want this house. I really, really want it. I hope it works out. If it doesn't, though, I will be okay.
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Date: 2012-07-12 03:16 am (UTC)when a broker tells you you're a slam dunk, wouldn't you assume you're probably fine?
Yeah, never assume. (And oh man, does your family sub in "cock" instead of "ass" or something?)
I hope it works out for you, either way.
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Date: 2012-07-12 03:18 am (UTC)The thing is, if we can get a loan, we'll actually be saving a significant amount of money (while building more equity, woo!) compared to the rent we pay right now. So it makes really good sense to do this if we can make it happen. Details to come in the entry I'm writing right now...