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Bess is getting decent at talking. She can count a little bit, and she knows some colors. She can identify "boo" and "gyeen," but ask her any other color and they are also going to be boo or gyeen.

It's a shame I was in such a state last weekend when I was with my brother. Those girls mean the world to me and I hate for them to think I'm anything but enthusiastic about spending time with them. Frankie knew I was upset about something, but didn't really know why. One morning when my eyes were swollen nearly shut from crying and my face was red and splotchy (or maybe gyeen and splotchy), she came up to me and gave me a big hug. Then she said "You're beautiful, Meg." Well, goodness.

I had some really good talks with William and Rachel. One thing I'm working on is how to support myself, and generally be a grownup, whether or not I have a husband to bring home the vegetarian bacon. I've been kicking around ideas about real estate for at least ten years now, and I've decided to get my real estate license and give agenting a shot. I'm not quitting my p/t office job...this will just be something else on my plate for a while. I think I'll be really good at it.

I don't know what's going to happen in my marriage. I want it to work out, and there is a nonzero chance that it will, but we've got a lot of work to do to get there. I really, really hope that we will. I love McKenzie entirely and want to be his wife for the rest of our lives. But I'm not equipped for that right now. We'll see.