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[jianantonic]

Life has been feeling particularly weighty lately. I'm definitely in the midst of a depression spell -- everything seems overwhelming and I'm putting off simple things that I really need to deal with. Classic symptoms for me. I don't feel overtaken by it, I just know it is there, making existence significantly more of an effort right now. But I am existing.

I came home last night to a certified letter from the city of Milwaukie. I found that odd, since we don't live in Milwaukie (it's a neighborhood that is part of Portland but apparently has its own city government), so I opened it and saw a lovely mug of my husband, behind the wheel of our Honda. It was one of those photo radar speeding tickets. $160. Awesome. His birthday is tomorrow -- kind of fitting, since I also got a speeding ticket on my birthday. Sigh. The funny thing is, though, that of all the things that are making me feel so down, this isn't one of them. I find this funny. I mean, it sucks, but it's funny.

I remembered the plans I'd forgotten I'd made for the weekend -- first Hokie football game. Going to our usual bar with the Portland Hokies. In past years, I've been much more excited. This year, I don't know much about the team, don't expect them to really be any good, and I'm just not pumped the way I used to be. Can't it be basketball season now? Blazers start their preseason games in early October...I'm beyond ready for that.

Anyway. Things are things. I'm hanging in. I could use some hugs. 

Comments

[deepseasiren.livejournal.com]

I totally and completely understand how you feel about the depression thing. So I am sending you some big hugs, my friend. Thank you for always keeping in touch with me and writing me and everything. It means the world to me.

[hikerpoet.livejournal.com]

I hope you're able to get lots of real life hugs in short order.

Lol; you guys are going to have to go to a Nascar race on a future birthday, even though you're not into it (I don't think) just to keep up with the theme. wish him happy early birthday anyway.

[waitingonsunday.livejournal.com]

*ALL the fake Internet hugs*

[emily gercke (from livejournal.com)]

I could use some sis QT soon too. Thinking of you!

[quandary87.livejournal.com]

The Hokies are all upside this year. I think we (yeah, we...) are the division favorites. Ohio State lost their QB and a bunch of other important players, so we have a chance in that game. Miami and UNC have tough schedules and we usually have Georgia Tech's number. We have as much potential as they do anyways. Duke has a cakewalk schedule, so we really need to beat them to make waves in the conference.