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[jianantonic]

Today my foot is worse than yesterday. I am so miserable! I called in to work again, because there is no way I'll be able to stand in the shower, put pants on, get to work, and then move myself around at work. It's just not a possibility. Jeremy reminds me that it hurts when your body heals itself, too, so the fact that it hurts worse than yesterday isn't necessarily a sign of doom. The swelling seems to have increased a little bit. I can't stop crying. Between the fact that it hurts so bad and the fact that recovery is taking so long and I'm so completely incapacitated because of this is just so frustrating. It really sucks everything out of me. The only thing I can think about is this stupid injury, because it hurts too bad to offer any chance for my mind to wander. I hate this. *whimper*

Peace.

Comments

[harri-cady.livejournal.com]

I hope it is healing that's causing the hurt! :(

[flamingophoenix.livejournal.com]

Augh. Meg, I know you don't have health insurance, and that really sucks elephant balls, as Danny would say...but you really should think about seeing a doctor about that. Bad things could happen--I don't know anything about feet, particularly, but...yeah.

"Worst" case scenario is a bit annoying--the doctor says you can't do anything except sit and let it rest until it gets better, and you waste the cost of a doctor visit. But the *other* worst case scenario is that your foot has something seriously wrong with it, like being broken or dislocated or whatever happens to feet. Ugh. I guess I should stop worrying, as it technically isn't my problem...but....yeah.

Take care of yourself. Good thoughts still coming your way.

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Emily. I know better than to let this go on for a long time without doing anything about it, but I'm not willing to put myself in serious debt before I give it a chance to get better on its own. I'm taking very good care of it, and it's actually quite a bit better today. When I woke up in the morning, it hurt like a mofo, but overall, it's better now. If it is a bone bruise, which apparently is the most likely scenario given the symptoms (although how the fuck do you bruise a bone without hitting it?), it will take a while to start feeling better, but should be okay before long. This only happened on Monday, so if I'm not walking again by the weekend, I will definitely go to the doctor...but until then, I can't stomach the idea of paying for it.