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Jul. 5th, 2014 09:28 amI celebrated the 4th of July like a Romanian yesterday, which is to say I didn't do shit.
I was ridiculously bored all day, but I couldn't find anything to capture my imagination enough to entertain me, even though I tried...I used to love days like this, with nothing on the agenda, but yesterday was kind of torturous, and I'm not really sure why. I was just so fucking bored. I also have some anxieties occupying space in my psyche that I can't really address in any way right now, and that's difficult. I talked to McKenzie about it a bit, and that was helpful. Even though our marriage is the source of a lot of distress, I feel like we're doing a great job right now with communication and helping each other through some of the challenges. It's promising.
DIY fireworks shows kept me up way later than I wanted to be last night -- I think I have better than average patience for this kind of revelry, but by 10pm, I was fucking OVER IT. And it kept going well beyond that. I finally fell asleep in spite of it, and I have no idea what time it actually stopped, just that it was still going at midnight. When I woke up and checked my texts, I saw that Jen got in probably right as I was falling asleep. D'oh. But she's here now, and whenever she emerges from the guest room, we'll get on with our day. Food carts, perhaps a hike, then game night with friends. 10K tomorrow at stupid o'clock. Oy. Better than oven o'clock, though.
I was ridiculously bored all day, but I couldn't find anything to capture my imagination enough to entertain me, even though I tried...I used to love days like this, with nothing on the agenda, but yesterday was kind of torturous, and I'm not really sure why. I was just so fucking bored. I also have some anxieties occupying space in my psyche that I can't really address in any way right now, and that's difficult. I talked to McKenzie about it a bit, and that was helpful. Even though our marriage is the source of a lot of distress, I feel like we're doing a great job right now with communication and helping each other through some of the challenges. It's promising.
DIY fireworks shows kept me up way later than I wanted to be last night -- I think I have better than average patience for this kind of revelry, but by 10pm, I was fucking OVER IT. And it kept going well beyond that. I finally fell asleep in spite of it, and I have no idea what time it actually stopped, just that it was still going at midnight. When I woke up and checked my texts, I saw that Jen got in probably right as I was falling asleep. D'oh. But she's here now, and whenever she emerges from the guest room, we'll get on with our day. Food carts, perhaps a hike, then game night with friends. 10K tomorrow at stupid o'clock. Oy. Better than oven o'clock, though.
