Brain Dump
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jianantonicA lot of people are doing this now...I'm just jumping on the bandwagon.
List up to ten (10) - or more - things you want to say to ten (10) different people. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any 'comment speculation'. Note, your 10 people do not have to be LJ friends.
1. I'm glad we're becoming good friends. I've always liked you but worried you didn't really like me/care to get to know me. I have a lot of fun with you and I really hope we stay friends for a long time. You're a lot cooler than I think you realize. You're definitely one of my favorite people, and I'm glad you're coming out of your shell more.
2. I think you are really pushy and inappropriate. Just relax, don't force things, and people will like you a lot more. Accept the things you cannot change. You are not a bad person, but I think your immaturity really shows, and it's time you take a step back and think about the things you say and do.
3. I'm so jealous of you. I've always looked up to you, even before we "knew" each other. I wish I was in your inner circle of friends, because it seems like you've got a great bunch of people around you, and you seem like a wonderful friend. I know you've had some rough times, but I've always dreamed of living a life like yours.
4. Lately, it seems a lot of the things you say are very passive aggressive, and it's really been upsetting me. I don't want to say anything, because I'm hoping I'm wrong, but it's been hard to give you the benefit of the doubt when it just keeps happening. That said, if I'm wrong, I think you need to be more careful about the way you say things, because some things you've said have been really hurtful. If I'm right, I guess I just wish it didn't feel like we were in competition. I view you as an equal, and I hope you see me the same way.
5. I miss you terribly. I would miss you less if I hung out with you more, and I'd hang out with you more if only you weren't surrounded by people that I really, really don't like. I honestly don't know why you're friends with them. You are a wonderful person, and I've always really cared about you.
6. You need to be realistic. The choices you've made lately have really set you up for trouble. I'm here for you, and I love you, but it's very exhausting and hard for me to see you struggle so much over things that you could fix, if only you were honest with yourself.
7. I can't think of enough wonderful things to say about you. I know you probably think I flatter you too much, or I'm only joking when I tell you how wonderful you are, but I mean it completely, and I hope you believe it about yourself. You've been a great friend, very patient with me, and I appreciate it immensely. I think if you were more confident, you'd get more of the respect you deserve. You are truly amazing. Trust me, I'm not the only one who thinks so.
8. I know you cheat on your SO, but I haven't said anything. I don't plan to, but I wish you would do the right thing and get out of the relationship before you make it worse. This knowledge makes me almost as uncomfortable as seeing you two together, knowing it's only a matter of time before you break this person's heart.
9. I wish your life was easier. I think you're a great kid, and you're going to do great things one day. I feel like I should do something, knowing what I know about your situation, but I also feel like that would be too much interfering, for someone who doesn't know you that well. I pray for you a lot.
10. You seem to define yourself by the people you date. It disgusts me, mostly because I used to be a lot like that and your stories make me look back on my younger days and gag. I think you're very selfish and you're wasting your brains doing what you do - and you won't have any brains left if you keep experimenting the way you do.
11. You seem to think I don't like you. That's totally not the case. I'm zoned out a lot of the time you talk to me because I'm a horrible multi-tasker and you're always trying to talk to me when I'm doing other things. But I think you're very interesting and I really enjoy hanging out with you. :)
12. I'm glad you're moving on to better things. I'm truly happy for you - not even happy with a side of jealousy. I really want to see you get great things out of life. I don't think you'll like living where you're going, but at least you'll be surrounded by academics. Whatever you do, don't make the mistake of thinking the town vibe will resemble the college vibe, because it won't, and you'll be unhappy. Plan to move after you graduate - trust me.
13. You are such a great pal! I still sometimes feel a bit like an outsider when I hang out with you, but that's just my own insecurity - you've done great to make me feel like one of your people. I worry that when we hang out, we make certain other people (well, one person, really) jealous, and I feel guilty about that, but I know I shouldn't. The thought of you and your SO moving here makes me all kinds of happy!
14. Without you, my folk experience would be totally different. You make Falcon Ridge what it is for me, and you KNOW how much I love that festival. I hope you know how important you are to everyone - not just me.
15. I am going to miss you SO MUCH - I know you're not going to be tied down in life, and even though nothing's final, I know you won't likely be living in Virginia much longer. Even though you're going away, somewhere, who knows, I know that we'll always be like sisters. I hope you know that I love you more than any other person in the world. (This one's not very hard to figure out, I guess.) I'm so lucky to have you in my life, and I hope we grow old together, even if we're not geographically together. I'm sorry this is so sappy - I know you hate corny shit - but what else can I say about you? Lots, actually. You're one of the smartest people I know, one of the most talented people I know, the most beautiful, just the all around best person there is on this planet. Work it.
16. You are so much fun. You think you bore me, but I'm really not just humoring you. I'm so into it. And I have confidence in the outcome. I guess we'll start to get a clearer picture soon now. That aspect of our relationship aside, I love all the other parts, too. I hope you find yourself in a rewarding place. I still say you should check out Charlottesville.
17. There's a reason we haven't spoken in a long time, and there's more to it than you think. You can't just walk back into my life like everything's the same as it was. We've both changed a lot, and while I look back fondly on the friendship we used to have, I don't really think it'll ever be like it was. I am sorry about that, and I'm sorry our friendship crumbled the way it did. I've never hated you - I just started seeing a side of you that was really unattractive, and I can't pretend that I like you anymore, because I really don't.
18. You may know this and you may not, but I started our friendship because I wanted to date you. Look at us now. Hah.
19. It's obvious that you don't understand the big words you use to try to impress people. Stop doing it; it's painful to hear you talk. You're a fine person, people will like you with or without an impressive vocabulary.
20. I really don't understand why you're a Republican. You're too nice, and have such a great sense of humor. Haha, low blow. Sorry. That's not it, though. I don't know, it just doesn't add up. I like you in spite of your views, though:) Thanks for not picking fights;)
21. I'm really interested to see if the red is still as bright now that it's been so long since the initial dye-job. I enjoy living vicariously through you - even without all the details:) Keep me posted, as always:)
22. You are beautiful the way you are. But self-confidence is important, so I understand why you want to change your appearance. I hope you are satisfied with the results.
23. Do you still keep up with my blog? I know you used to read it regularly. I miss you - I hope you're doing well. Let's hang out next time you're back down south:)
24. I saved you for last, because I felt like I should have something big and momentous to tell you - but honestly, it's simple: I love you tremendously, and I support you completely. I want to be your sounding block, your crying shoulder, your distraction, and your friend. You are what I miss most about Harrisonburg - I know you know I'm still here for you, though. Thanks for being such a wonderful friend. I hope I can be as good a friend to you as you are to me.
Okay, decidedly more than 10. I didn't do everyone, so if something doesn't seem to fit you, it's probably just because I didn't have anything to say that I haven't already said to your face. I did a few people more than once, also, just to keep things interesting, of course.
Don't worry about the bad ones. I think everyone has bad thoughts that they keep from their friends - there are reasons I haven't said these things to you directly. It could be because they're not that big a deal, or I would say them to your face if we were better friends, perhaps. Actually I don't think most of the people I wrote bad things about even read this, but it was nice to unload. And if you don't see something good about yourself, it's only because I didn't think you read my journal, because I tried to say good things about everyone I knew would read it. Sorry if I missed you, but you'll really never know because I'm not going to confirm or deny any of these. If you're really a good friend of mine, I probably didn't say anything bad about you, but if you think I did, then maybe you should work on that? Just a thought;) But honestly, I love all my friends. I wouldn't fake a friendship - that's just too much work with no reward. I love you all, seriously:)
Oh, and my husband isn't included in the list, so don't look for him in them. I don't have any secret feelings about him. I love him, and he knows:)
Peace.
List up to ten (10) - or more - things you want to say to ten (10) different people. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any 'comment speculation'. Note, your 10 people do not have to be LJ friends.
1. I'm glad we're becoming good friends. I've always liked you but worried you didn't really like me/care to get to know me. I have a lot of fun with you and I really hope we stay friends for a long time. You're a lot cooler than I think you realize. You're definitely one of my favorite people, and I'm glad you're coming out of your shell more.
2. I think you are really pushy and inappropriate. Just relax, don't force things, and people will like you a lot more. Accept the things you cannot change. You are not a bad person, but I think your immaturity really shows, and it's time you take a step back and think about the things you say and do.
3. I'm so jealous of you. I've always looked up to you, even before we "knew" each other. I wish I was in your inner circle of friends, because it seems like you've got a great bunch of people around you, and you seem like a wonderful friend. I know you've had some rough times, but I've always dreamed of living a life like yours.
4. Lately, it seems a lot of the things you say are very passive aggressive, and it's really been upsetting me. I don't want to say anything, because I'm hoping I'm wrong, but it's been hard to give you the benefit of the doubt when it just keeps happening. That said, if I'm wrong, I think you need to be more careful about the way you say things, because some things you've said have been really hurtful. If I'm right, I guess I just wish it didn't feel like we were in competition. I view you as an equal, and I hope you see me the same way.
5. I miss you terribly. I would miss you less if I hung out with you more, and I'd hang out with you more if only you weren't surrounded by people that I really, really don't like. I honestly don't know why you're friends with them. You are a wonderful person, and I've always really cared about you.
6. You need to be realistic. The choices you've made lately have really set you up for trouble. I'm here for you, and I love you, but it's very exhausting and hard for me to see you struggle so much over things that you could fix, if only you were honest with yourself.
7. I can't think of enough wonderful things to say about you. I know you probably think I flatter you too much, or I'm only joking when I tell you how wonderful you are, but I mean it completely, and I hope you believe it about yourself. You've been a great friend, very patient with me, and I appreciate it immensely. I think if you were more confident, you'd get more of the respect you deserve. You are truly amazing. Trust me, I'm not the only one who thinks so.
8. I know you cheat on your SO, but I haven't said anything. I don't plan to, but I wish you would do the right thing and get out of the relationship before you make it worse. This knowledge makes me almost as uncomfortable as seeing you two together, knowing it's only a matter of time before you break this person's heart.
9. I wish your life was easier. I think you're a great kid, and you're going to do great things one day. I feel like I should do something, knowing what I know about your situation, but I also feel like that would be too much interfering, for someone who doesn't know you that well. I pray for you a lot.
10. You seem to define yourself by the people you date. It disgusts me, mostly because I used to be a lot like that and your stories make me look back on my younger days and gag. I think you're very selfish and you're wasting your brains doing what you do - and you won't have any brains left if you keep experimenting the way you do.
11. You seem to think I don't like you. That's totally not the case. I'm zoned out a lot of the time you talk to me because I'm a horrible multi-tasker and you're always trying to talk to me when I'm doing other things. But I think you're very interesting and I really enjoy hanging out with you. :)
12. I'm glad you're moving on to better things. I'm truly happy for you - not even happy with a side of jealousy. I really want to see you get great things out of life. I don't think you'll like living where you're going, but at least you'll be surrounded by academics. Whatever you do, don't make the mistake of thinking the town vibe will resemble the college vibe, because it won't, and you'll be unhappy. Plan to move after you graduate - trust me.
13. You are such a great pal! I still sometimes feel a bit like an outsider when I hang out with you, but that's just my own insecurity - you've done great to make me feel like one of your people. I worry that when we hang out, we make certain other people (well, one person, really) jealous, and I feel guilty about that, but I know I shouldn't. The thought of you and your SO moving here makes me all kinds of happy!
14. Without you, my folk experience would be totally different. You make Falcon Ridge what it is for me, and you KNOW how much I love that festival. I hope you know how important you are to everyone - not just me.
15. I am going to miss you SO MUCH - I know you're not going to be tied down in life, and even though nothing's final, I know you won't likely be living in Virginia much longer. Even though you're going away, somewhere, who knows, I know that we'll always be like sisters. I hope you know that I love you more than any other person in the world. (This one's not very hard to figure out, I guess.) I'm so lucky to have you in my life, and I hope we grow old together, even if we're not geographically together. I'm sorry this is so sappy - I know you hate corny shit - but what else can I say about you? Lots, actually. You're one of the smartest people I know, one of the most talented people I know, the most beautiful, just the all around best person there is on this planet. Work it.
16. You are so much fun. You think you bore me, but I'm really not just humoring you. I'm so into it. And I have confidence in the outcome. I guess we'll start to get a clearer picture soon now. That aspect of our relationship aside, I love all the other parts, too. I hope you find yourself in a rewarding place. I still say you should check out Charlottesville.
17. There's a reason we haven't spoken in a long time, and there's more to it than you think. You can't just walk back into my life like everything's the same as it was. We've both changed a lot, and while I look back fondly on the friendship we used to have, I don't really think it'll ever be like it was. I am sorry about that, and I'm sorry our friendship crumbled the way it did. I've never hated you - I just started seeing a side of you that was really unattractive, and I can't pretend that I like you anymore, because I really don't.
18. You may know this and you may not, but I started our friendship because I wanted to date you. Look at us now. Hah.
19. It's obvious that you don't understand the big words you use to try to impress people. Stop doing it; it's painful to hear you talk. You're a fine person, people will like you with or without an impressive vocabulary.
20. I really don't understand why you're a Republican. You're too nice, and have such a great sense of humor. Haha, low blow. Sorry. That's not it, though. I don't know, it just doesn't add up. I like you in spite of your views, though:) Thanks for not picking fights;)
21. I'm really interested to see if the red is still as bright now that it's been so long since the initial dye-job. I enjoy living vicariously through you - even without all the details:) Keep me posted, as always:)
22. You are beautiful the way you are. But self-confidence is important, so I understand why you want to change your appearance. I hope you are satisfied with the results.
23. Do you still keep up with my blog? I know you used to read it regularly. I miss you - I hope you're doing well. Let's hang out next time you're back down south:)
24. I saved you for last, because I felt like I should have something big and momentous to tell you - but honestly, it's simple: I love you tremendously, and I support you completely. I want to be your sounding block, your crying shoulder, your distraction, and your friend. You are what I miss most about Harrisonburg - I know you know I'm still here for you, though. Thanks for being such a wonderful friend. I hope I can be as good a friend to you as you are to me.
Okay, decidedly more than 10. I didn't do everyone, so if something doesn't seem to fit you, it's probably just because I didn't have anything to say that I haven't already said to your face. I did a few people more than once, also, just to keep things interesting, of course.
Don't worry about the bad ones. I think everyone has bad thoughts that they keep from their friends - there are reasons I haven't said these things to you directly. It could be because they're not that big a deal, or I would say them to your face if we were better friends, perhaps. Actually I don't think most of the people I wrote bad things about even read this, but it was nice to unload. And if you don't see something good about yourself, it's only because I didn't think you read my journal, because I tried to say good things about everyone I knew would read it. Sorry if I missed you, but you'll really never know because I'm not going to confirm or deny any of these. If you're really a good friend of mine, I probably didn't say anything bad about you, but if you think I did, then maybe you should work on that? Just a thought;) But honestly, I love all my friends. I wouldn't fake a friendship - that's just too much work with no reward. I love you all, seriously:)
Oh, and my husband isn't included in the list, so don't look for him in them. I don't have any secret feelings about him. I love him, and he knows:)
Peace.
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