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[jianantonic]

Thanks again, everyone, for all that you've said, done, thought, and prayed for me/us lately. Part of what was making things so hard for me was that I was terrified of judgment. My parents, his parents, our friends, etc...it's still indescribably painful, but at least one monkey is off my back, because everyone has been so supportive.

I also really appreciate people not asking why. I can't answer that. I don't want my/our friends and family taking sides, or wondering who did what to whom. It's not like that. Jeremy is still the person I love most in the world. Unfortunately, we're just not compatible as husband and wife right now. Who knows what the future holds - I'm trying not to be terrified of that - but I wish only the best for Jeremy and I pray that I have the strength to hold together as I see him go on and succeed in life without me.

On top of that right now, the biggest stress is my house. Ahren and Kmart have been there since Monday, and my mom and I have been going over each day to work on it. It's *so* close. That's a big relief, but the housing market is TERRIBLE right now, and I'm really worried I won't be able to sell it in time to close on the new place. I don't know what I'll do if that happens, and I'm praying I don't have to worry about it (anymore than I already am). If any of you wants to buy a house at Massanutten, I'm listing it way below market value...I'll have pictures to post shortly. I'm going back over there tonight, and hopefully it'll be finished tonight. My mom was skeptical, but Kmart was as cocky/confident as she was skeptical, so here's hoping. Would it be asking too much if I begged for some more happy thoughts in the direction of my house-selling? Thank you...

I love you guys.

Peace.

Comments

[duhpens.livejournal.com]

Have you listed your house yet? A friend of mine may be interested. Email me any information/contact information -

yes I know you did this back when you decided to sell it - but my hard drive has crashed and I don't have it any more.

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

It'll be listed by the weekend or early next week. I'll have pictures up hopefully tomorrow.

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

Yeah but even my realtor is wary. So...I'm nervous. But hopeful.

[harri-cady.livejournal.com]

I'm sure that kind of decision is a very personal one. I don't blame you for not wanting to go into specifics. It's no one else's business, really.

*happy house thoughts*

You're putting so much work into it (you and everyone else, that is!) that it has got to show.

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

It's not that I don't want to go into specifics (well, okay, I don't, it's no one's business, etc...), but there really aren't specifics. It's just what we have to do to be happy, eventually. You know? Oh well. We're not making any *real* decisions until after lots of therapy, but we're separated right now.

Thanks - I'm going to take pictures today.

[flamingophoenix.livejournal.com]

Well, it's not really our business. :-) Life happens.

Happy thoughts about house-selling!!!