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jianantonicAhren and Kmart were listening to this mix CD yesterday of all these Irish Pub songs that I really liked, so I stole it out of the CD player to bring with me to work today. I'm going to take it back, don't worry - but I've been listening to all these sea shanties and drinking songs and now I just want to go drink some beer and kick some ass! And I hate beer and I'm a pacifist! Ha!
So I still have a headache but it's not a migraine. Some of you have suggested, and I don't doubt, that this is a result of depression + anxiety and stress. I should probably start taking some meds again soon. I used to take Prozac, and that was a real lifesaver for me...then I lost my insurance and couldn't afford it anymore. But I'm all insured now and I guess it's time to stop delaying. But that's the thing about depression...the only thing you *want* to do is procrastinate...sigh. I mean, here's how unmotivated I can be...there's a plant on my desk, right next to me...and it needs water...and I save my unfinished water bottles next to the plant for watering purposes. I could water this plant right now...it's needed it for a few days now...and I just haven't done it. Okay, okay, now I feel terrible for writing that and not having watered it, so I'm doing it now...okay, done. And that really wasn't so bad...and I knew it wouldn't be...but for some reason, I just. didn't. want. to. do. it. And it's like that with every single thing in my life, all day, every day, only most things aren't so easy as watering a plant that's right next to me with water that's also right next to me.
But the sea shanties are helping.
Peace.
So I still have a headache but it's not a migraine. Some of you have suggested, and I don't doubt, that this is a result of depression + anxiety and stress. I should probably start taking some meds again soon. I used to take Prozac, and that was a real lifesaver for me...then I lost my insurance and couldn't afford it anymore. But I'm all insured now and I guess it's time to stop delaying. But that's the thing about depression...the only thing you *want* to do is procrastinate...sigh. I mean, here's how unmotivated I can be...there's a plant on my desk, right next to me...and it needs water...and I save my unfinished water bottles next to the plant for watering purposes. I could water this plant right now...it's needed it for a few days now...and I just haven't done it. Okay, okay, now I feel terrible for writing that and not having watered it, so I'm doing it now...okay, done. And that really wasn't so bad...and I knew it wouldn't be...but for some reason, I just. didn't. want. to. do. it. And it's like that with every single thing in my life, all day, every day, only most things aren't so easy as watering a plant that's right next to me with water that's also right next to me.
But the sea shanties are helping.
Peace.
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Date: 2006-08-10 07:11 pm (UTC)I think drinking beer and kicking ass is underestimated as a form of therapy. You could always drink some girly beer and slap some ass.. or something. That started as a really funny comment and just went south quickly.
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Date: 2006-08-10 07:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-10 09:49 pm (UTC)Sea shanties are the best.