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[jianantonic]

Another near sleepless night, but a much better day, anyway. The things that were bugging me yesterday have been mostly sorted out. Working out really helped. My trainer is awesome.

I got to the gym at 5:45 for my training session and weighed myself in the locker room (down 12 pounds over the last 5 weeks!) before getting on a cardio machine to warm up before training. Right at 6pm, I saw Jen walk by and I flagged her down to get started. But she told me that she had someone else at 6, I must be her 7pm...sure enough...

Now, if I hadn't scheduled a session for last night, there is NO WAY I would've made it to the gym. I was tired, grumpy, and just plain miserable. Hearing I'd have to wait another hour yet was not cool. I went to my car and cried for the first 45 minutes of my wait. It was just that kind of day.

I pulled myself together enough to crawl back into the gym at 7pm for my real session. Jen could tell I was feeling down, and she said she would do her best to get my juices flowing in a positive way and turn my mood around. I told her I was counting on her for it, but I was unsure that I'd be able to muster the energy for a decent workout. She took me into the cycling room and started with some bike stuff, which we'd never done before. It's been a little over a week since I saw her last, and when I started working out, she said, "Oh my gosh, Meg, you have slimmed down SO MUCH just in the last week. You look incredible!" And for the first time, I believed her. She says she always sees progress on me, and I guess I have been progressing, it just felt so slow...but it's like everything just clicked in the last week and all of a sudden I have a whole new body. The fact that others could tell really picked my mood up. One of the other (male) trainers walked by while she had me doing some back stuff and said to us that he's noticed, too. I asked her if he says that to everyone and she said no, it was that drastic and that obvious and he was complimenting us on our hard work. Warm fuzzies all around...

This encouragement was just what I needed to lift my spirits and energy, and I was able to do a really intense session with Jen. I felt amazing at the end of it. I wish I could have workouts like that every day.

My cousin and her man are both going vegan for Lent, and since they were in town, they invited me out for one last dairy fest for dinner after the gym. I told them I wouldn't eat much dairy myself, but I'd be happy to join them. We ended up going to Himalayan Fusion (my 7th time there in 7 days, omg it's so good), where I ordered Dall (no dairy) but they both got dishes with dairy, so I got to keep all the leftovers. My mouth is watering just thinking about it:)

Ahren got home in the middle of the night, and I've never been more relieved to see a person. I was unable to get back to sleep for most of the night, because my mind was racing with thoughts of just how happy I am that he's home. Unfortunately, when my alarm went off this morning, I woke up feeling like DOOKIE. It's not just because I'm tired...my cousin was sick yesterday too and I think I may have the same crap. I just feel so unpleasant. :-/ I'd go home early, but we have a staff meeting this afternoon from 1-3. Dang.

Tonight: sleep, and lots of it.

Peace.

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[stillbigonbnl.livejournal.com]

You are truly my weight loss hero.

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanks - you're doing well, too! I'm just down 2-3 pounds per week. That's how it's supposed to be done, I guess. Hopefully I can eventually come off this diet and keep up with my progress...that remains to be seen...