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[jianantonic]

I'm a bit down today. And that's a bit of an understatement, but I can't be all woe is me because I really do have quite a bit to look forward to. I'm just sad about my immediate circumstances.

I've got some stuff at work that I really have to do but am kind of dreading.
I'm sore from the gym last night even though I didn't really feel like I got a great workout.
I'm training with my trainer again tonight even though I'm still sore. I like her and I like training with her, and I know I'll probably feel good when I'm there, but at the same time I know she's going to kick my ass and it's hard and I just need to whine for a bit.
All of this is kind of trivial stuff, and I wouldn't be bothered by any of it were it not underscored by the fact that I'm just totally dreading the next two weeks already, starting now. Why? Because my partner in bridge is going away to St Louis for the nationals and I don't get to go and I don't like it when he's not here. Between work and the gym and DI and bridge, Ahren is pretty much the only social life I have right now, and I'm going to miss him terribly for these next two weeks.

But, surprisingly enough, I do have a bit of a social life while he's gone. And other things to generally look forward to (though still none more than March 19th, when he gets back, and Emily returns from Germany around that time, too.)

Tonight - train with Jen, take my mind off the sad.
Tomorrow - hang out with the lovely and talented Ms. Cartwright after work, recover from the sore that will be left from training with Jen the previous two nights.
Thursday - bridge at the club, maybe squeeze in the gym beforehand.
Friday - DI, hopefully time for the gym too.
Saturday - gym, DI, bridge at a tourney in Lynchburg with a regular teammate but first time partner, Kevin.
Sunday - more Lynchburg bridge, this time a team game, assuming Eberhard finds a fourth.
Monday - DI and/or bridge and/or gym
Tuesday - training with Jen, take my mind off the sad again
Wednesday - dinner with friends from Harrisonburg, GIRLYMAN at the Gravity Lounge!!!!
Thursday - bridge at the club, short workout day
Friday - DI - likely a marathon.
Saturday - DI regionals all day. See many old friends and spend the whole day acting silly and enjoying the silly of others. Rock on.
Sunday - possibly a bridge tourney in Fredericksburg? Not sure.
Monday - just get through the day and then Ahren should be home by the late evening.

So it's not that I don't have a packed schedule. I just have to come home to an empty house each night. Normally on nights like those, I'd play in online tourneys with the beloved Jeremy F, but he's also going to be in St. Louis. I guess I'll be okay. I really need to change my mentality. It's not like I'll be home alone pining all the time. And last time Ahren went away was my best week at the gym ever. I made so much progress in the 8 days he was away...maybe I can repeat that again. And I get to see Girlyman. And lots of friends. And DI regionals - always a total blast. Okay, I'm feeling better about this now. I talked myself into it.

Funny dream last night: I was a contestant on Legends of the Hidden Temple, but the temple was more like a Dare physical challenge - it still had the crypt and the shrine of the silver monkey and all that shit, but everything was covered in slime and goo and fake dessert. And I was in that temple for a good half hour before time ran out. I didn't win.

Peace.

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[flamingophoenix.livejournal.com]

Oh hey! Did I tell you I'm appraising for the tiny kiddles? Minus side is I won't get to see your team's performance, plus side is there's no whiff of impropriety. Yay! See you there!

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

Sure thing:)