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Apr. 24th, 2007 10:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicI got some very sad news last night.
My trainer is moving to New Mexico. I am happy for her - her husband got a great job offer and that's where they are from originally, so I know she will be happy. But oh my god, I am going to miss her so much. I was pretty upset about this last night. I'm still pretty upset, but I will be okay. I just purchased a package of 15 sessions from her, and there's no way I'll complete those before she's gone, so I'll get to try out some other trainers. This could be a good thing, but I'm very nervous. No one understands me like Jen does.
That's not to say that no one ever will. It's just that I really feel she is the perfect fit for me, and I'm concerned that my fitness may suffer in the hands of someone else. Or maybe my fitness will improve, but at the expense of my attitude. The thing with Jen is that she totally kicks my ass - she hurts me, really, but I know it's good for me and she knows my limits even better than I do, so even though she really makes me sweat, I never dread seeing her. I mean sometimes I do, but I always feel better for it. And we talk and connect and that gets me through our sessions. And it took a long time to form that bond of friendship, and I hope I can find another trainer who is as friendly and kind and knowledgeable and fun and all these things....
But even if I do find another trainer who trains me as well and is as good a friend, I am still going to miss Jen very much.
We had an internet outage at work this morning that threw everyone into a frenzy. I am caught up now, I think. Of course now that I've said that, something is likely to throw me off track. It's just one of those days, weeks, months...I'm not sure when it started and I'm not sure when it will end but I am definitely in a funk and I hope it clears up soon. Things are okay, though. I feel healthy and pretty and smart, if not a little lost. But Jen said yesterday "Meg, you are young. Things have time to straighten out." Is it weird that I don't feel young? That I've never felt young? But I suppose I am. I'm only 23, after all. For three more days. ;)
Peace.
My trainer is moving to New Mexico. I am happy for her - her husband got a great job offer and that's where they are from originally, so I know she will be happy. But oh my god, I am going to miss her so much. I was pretty upset about this last night. I'm still pretty upset, but I will be okay. I just purchased a package of 15 sessions from her, and there's no way I'll complete those before she's gone, so I'll get to try out some other trainers. This could be a good thing, but I'm very nervous. No one understands me like Jen does.
That's not to say that no one ever will. It's just that I really feel she is the perfect fit for me, and I'm concerned that my fitness may suffer in the hands of someone else. Or maybe my fitness will improve, but at the expense of my attitude. The thing with Jen is that she totally kicks my ass - she hurts me, really, but I know it's good for me and she knows my limits even better than I do, so even though she really makes me sweat, I never dread seeing her. I mean sometimes I do, but I always feel better for it. And we talk and connect and that gets me through our sessions. And it took a long time to form that bond of friendship, and I hope I can find another trainer who is as friendly and kind and knowledgeable and fun and all these things....
But even if I do find another trainer who trains me as well and is as good a friend, I am still going to miss Jen very much.
We had an internet outage at work this morning that threw everyone into a frenzy. I am caught up now, I think. Of course now that I've said that, something is likely to throw me off track. It's just one of those days, weeks, months...I'm not sure when it started and I'm not sure when it will end but I am definitely in a funk and I hope it clears up soon. Things are okay, though. I feel healthy and pretty and smart, if not a little lost. But Jen said yesterday "Meg, you are young. Things have time to straighten out." Is it weird that I don't feel young? That I've never felt young? But I suppose I am. I'm only 23, after all. For three more days. ;)
Peace.
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Date: 2007-04-24 03:18 pm (UTC)Oh how I wish I was 23-24 again. Good times, good times.
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Date: 2007-04-25 03:26 pm (UTC)You just come across as being well put together. That's why I figured you to be 25-26 range.
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Date: 2007-04-24 06:15 pm (UTC)And I always feel old too. Actually, more like I either feel uber young or old. I never feel 26, I either feel like I'm 13 and over my head or I'm 35 and tired of the same crap.
Not that 35 is "old" but...ok, I'll just shut up now. I'm not really helping, am I? :\
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Date: 2007-04-24 09:50 pm (UTC)I've heard that things have changed under the new management, so I say this with a slight reservation, but you might consider starting Tae Kwon Do (IBBCV, on Rio Road and Berkmar). It's incredibly aerobic and good for the self-esteem, in addition to being a beautiful art. Just the requisite shameless plug. ;-)
Good luck with the new regime, in any case!