I haven't forgotten, really.

[jianantonic]

I'm so behind on everything these days. I can't believe how little I've been blogging recently. It's just that my conscience keeps telling me to keep what's on my mind inside there, that it wouldn't be right to share with the outside world. Don't worry, I'm not plotting anyone's demise or anything...it's just...I've been feeling these very intense emotions lately, all ends of every spectrum, and I'm not sure any of them are particularly justified, so talking about it would just make me look and feel silly.

Not that I don't look and feel silly to most of you anyway. But this is the kind of silly I'm less comfortable with.

I have missed blogging. It's not like I've been terribly absent; it's just been a bit longer than usual since my last epic update. Let's see, what to talk about...

Ah yes - my brother William is getting hitched in less than 2 weeks. I'm going to NYC this weekend for Rachel's bridal shower. Yesterday at my aunt's wake, Adrian and I had the following conversation.
A: So how are you getting up there this weekend?
M: I'm taking a train.
A: Oh, I didn't know there was a train station there.
M: Where do you think I'm going...?
A: The Poconos?
M: No, the shower is on Long Island.
A: Shower? I'm talking about the wedding.
M: That's in two weeks.
A: What?
M: The wedding isn't this weekend. This weekend is Belmont. William wouldn't get married on Belmont day.
A: Give me a phone!

Adrian had been planning all along to go to a wedding this weekend. Thank goodness for small talk. Or, as William put it so much less eloquently, "It's a good thing Betty died." He was kidding, of course. I thought long and hard about whether or not to post that quote, as it's a bit, well, awful, but I decided the humor outweighs the awfulness, especially if you know my family and my brother - obviously you know it's just a joke and that yes it is pretty funny. But now this disclaimer has pretty much ruined the humor. Oh well.

It was nice to see so much family yesterday, even if it was a less than joyous occasion. Then again, you wouldn't know it from the gathering at my parents' house. I've never heard so much laughing and carrying on. Well, not since the last family funeral, I guess. I come from a long line of story tellers. I guess the blogging has been in my blood all along. I hope I can sometimes make people laugh as hard as they make each other laugh. That would be nice.

Oy, I'm just not feeling all that funny lately. Things are just a little too solemn right now. Hopefully the wedding will be enough to snap me out of this funk. I'm sure I'll have a good time, anyway. I'm leaving my drama in Charlottesville.

Peace.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Ah, your brothers. The Massie men are awesome.

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

...you are?

[jianantonic.livejournal.com]

Ok, cool:) It sounded like something you might've said, but I was slightly frightened that some random relative I didn't know about had been reading my blog.

[stillbigonbnl.livejournal.com]

"I hope I can sometimes make people laugh as hard as they make each other laugh."

Amen. I live by that.