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Dec. 4th, 2003 10:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicIt is snowing. But I am at school. Fuckers. Apparently, after the chaos last year of cancelling school in the middle of exams, they won't be doing that again at any cost. Hopefully they'll change their minds...
So today Shayne invited himself to share breakfast with Jer and me at the Eagle's Nest. Shayne is one of those guys that took me to my breaking point last year and always treated me like the bitch. Well, he just sits right down and starts talking. I don't look up. He then says, "Meg, I have to apologize to you for being an ass last year. I realize now that it was because I was depressed and need help." I still don't look up. What the fuck am I supposed to say? Good for you, the things you said before don't hurt anymore? Phew, now I can forget all about the worst day of my life? Umm...so I just went on in silence, listening to him talk at Jeremy, me wanting to scream the whole time. I mean I respect his apology, and good for him for deciding not to be a jerk anymore, but that doesn't mean I ever want to talk to him or look at him or think about him again. I can't think about those guys without remembering what an awful time they put me through. And the fact remains that most of them still talk shit about me all the time when I haven't spoken to any of them since March.
On a lighter note, I am going to die. Yep. I missed ANOTHER paper today, because it was assigned and discussed in one of the classes while I was in the hospital, and no one bothered to tell me about it! It's not even on the syllabus! So Dr. Longenecker and I have a meeting tomorrow to discuss my performance in his class. Even though I didn't write a paper, and everyone else did, I still was the only one who was willing to answer his questions in class today. Everyone wrote papers on the theme of these documents, and I'm the only one who can come forward with an answer? The right answer, too, I might add. If he doesn't understand that I'm doing my best and still contributing to his class more than the people who are caught up, then he's blind. I don't think he is blind, though, so we'll see how it all works out. I'm worried, though.
Anyhow...I need to do some work. I only have two hours to read a whole book, so I should get to that.
Peace.
So today Shayne invited himself to share breakfast with Jer and me at the Eagle's Nest. Shayne is one of those guys that took me to my breaking point last year and always treated me like the bitch. Well, he just sits right down and starts talking. I don't look up. He then says, "Meg, I have to apologize to you for being an ass last year. I realize now that it was because I was depressed and need help." I still don't look up. What the fuck am I supposed to say? Good for you, the things you said before don't hurt anymore? Phew, now I can forget all about the worst day of my life? Umm...so I just went on in silence, listening to him talk at Jeremy, me wanting to scream the whole time. I mean I respect his apology, and good for him for deciding not to be a jerk anymore, but that doesn't mean I ever want to talk to him or look at him or think about him again. I can't think about those guys without remembering what an awful time they put me through. And the fact remains that most of them still talk shit about me all the time when I haven't spoken to any of them since March.
On a lighter note, I am going to die. Yep. I missed ANOTHER paper today, because it was assigned and discussed in one of the classes while I was in the hospital, and no one bothered to tell me about it! It's not even on the syllabus! So Dr. Longenecker and I have a meeting tomorrow to discuss my performance in his class. Even though I didn't write a paper, and everyone else did, I still was the only one who was willing to answer his questions in class today. Everyone wrote papers on the theme of these documents, and I'm the only one who can come forward with an answer? The right answer, too, I might add. If he doesn't understand that I'm doing my best and still contributing to his class more than the people who are caught up, then he's blind. I don't think he is blind, though, so we'll see how it all works out. I'm worried, though.
Anyhow...I need to do some work. I only have two hours to read a whole book, so I should get to that.
Peace.
