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Jul. 11th, 2008 08:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicI'm starting to stress a lot about our upcoming Brooklyn/Vegas/Falcon Ridge trip. For one thing, our house still needs a lot of work before we can leave, because someone is moving in while we're gone. We've done some good stuff, but not enough. This weekend is going to have to be balls to the wall cleaning and preparing.
Then we'll need to pack one of the cars for FRFF. And here's where I'm starting to freak a little bit -- we're flying out of Hartford and leaving our car there, packed and ready for FRFF so we only have a short drive when we fly in from Vegas. We're staying in Brooklyn the night before we fly out so we have less of a drive to the airport. There are two simultaneous freakouts happening here:
1. Whenever we go to Brooklyn, my brother advises that we take EVERYTHING out of the car or risk getting robbed. Our car is going to be packed FULL of FRFF stuff, that we can't really unload very easily, and we certainly can't afford to be robbed of it.
2. Traffic in and out of NY is so unpredictable; I'm freaking out that we may not make it to the airport on time, even if we leave with plenty of time to spare. But I freak about this no matter where I am.
Anyway I really want to go to Brooklyn and see my brother's family, but now I'm thinking we should find somewhere else to stay the night before, because it's just not worth the stress:(
And then there's the thing I've been freaking out about ever since, well, always. McKenzie has agreed to play in the 0-5000 Spingolds, which go through Friday or Saturday, I believe, if his team keeps winning. So he needs to lose pretty much on the first or second day in order to come to FRFF with me. I don't want to go alone (I will, but it'll suck getting there), it'll be expensive to change his plane ticket, and have I mentioned how pissed off I will be?
Then there's the other issue that if he loses on, say, Tuesday -- what if his client wants to start a new KO on Wednesday, which would continue through Thursday? Our tickets out are either Wednesday night or Thursday morning -- McKenzie told me once but I haven't seen the confirmation.
It's not that I want them to lose. I want my husband to do well by his client. It's just that I'm really, really upset that he agreed to play in an event knowing all along that it overlaps the fest. He keeps assuring me that of course they'll lose, but I don't think that's a given. This is a limited field, and they've been able to win in much stronger fields, like their two Gatlinburg B2 wins. They won't face any teams as tough as the ones they beat in those KOs, so I am really hoping that the client is at his worst and they exit on the first day. Every day that they win will be another day that my stress multiplies. I hate traveling by myself, I hate driving in unfamiliar cities, and I'd really hate to be at Falcon Ridge only enjoying it in between regrets that I'm not sharing it with Z. The more I think about it, the more upset it makes me, and it's not like it does any good to keep getting upset over the same damn thing; the same damn thing that I can't do anything about. But the closer it gets, the more I stress about it. Last night, I had a very uncomfortable sleep, because I just kept dreaming about all the worst case scenarios.
Then when I woke up and Z was snoring comfortably next to me, it just made me madder. How can you be comfortable at a time like this?! I'm losing my mind over here! I do think it's time for some more stress management hypnotherapy....
Anyway, I'm going to get up and go work now, and hopefully when my husband wakes up, he'll read this and decide that a good way to help his wife chill the fuck out would be to clean out the closet, or the cars, or maybe both.
Peace.
Then we'll need to pack one of the cars for FRFF. And here's where I'm starting to freak a little bit -- we're flying out of Hartford and leaving our car there, packed and ready for FRFF so we only have a short drive when we fly in from Vegas. We're staying in Brooklyn the night before we fly out so we have less of a drive to the airport. There are two simultaneous freakouts happening here:
1. Whenever we go to Brooklyn, my brother advises that we take EVERYTHING out of the car or risk getting robbed. Our car is going to be packed FULL of FRFF stuff, that we can't really unload very easily, and we certainly can't afford to be robbed of it.
2. Traffic in and out of NY is so unpredictable; I'm freaking out that we may not make it to the airport on time, even if we leave with plenty of time to spare. But I freak about this no matter where I am.
Anyway I really want to go to Brooklyn and see my brother's family, but now I'm thinking we should find somewhere else to stay the night before, because it's just not worth the stress:(
And then there's the thing I've been freaking out about ever since, well, always. McKenzie has agreed to play in the 0-5000 Spingolds, which go through Friday or Saturday, I believe, if his team keeps winning. So he needs to lose pretty much on the first or second day in order to come to FRFF with me. I don't want to go alone (I will, but it'll suck getting there), it'll be expensive to change his plane ticket, and have I mentioned how pissed off I will be?
Then there's the other issue that if he loses on, say, Tuesday -- what if his client wants to start a new KO on Wednesday, which would continue through Thursday? Our tickets out are either Wednesday night or Thursday morning -- McKenzie told me once but I haven't seen the confirmation.
It's not that I want them to lose. I want my husband to do well by his client. It's just that I'm really, really upset that he agreed to play in an event knowing all along that it overlaps the fest. He keeps assuring me that of course they'll lose, but I don't think that's a given. This is a limited field, and they've been able to win in much stronger fields, like their two Gatlinburg B2 wins. They won't face any teams as tough as the ones they beat in those KOs, so I am really hoping that the client is at his worst and they exit on the first day. Every day that they win will be another day that my stress multiplies. I hate traveling by myself, I hate driving in unfamiliar cities, and I'd really hate to be at Falcon Ridge only enjoying it in between regrets that I'm not sharing it with Z. The more I think about it, the more upset it makes me, and it's not like it does any good to keep getting upset over the same damn thing; the same damn thing that I can't do anything about. But the closer it gets, the more I stress about it. Last night, I had a very uncomfortable sleep, because I just kept dreaming about all the worst case scenarios.
Then when I woke up and Z was snoring comfortably next to me, it just made me madder. How can you be comfortable at a time like this?! I'm losing my mind over here! I do think it's time for some more stress management hypnotherapy....
Anyway, I'm going to get up and go work now, and hopefully when my husband wakes up, he'll read this and decide that a good way to help his wife chill the fuck out would be to clean out the closet, or the cars, or maybe both.
Peace.
