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Jan. 26th, 2011 08:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicI'm taking a break from packing to note a reflection.
When I was depressed, shopping was definitely one of my drugs of choice. It made me feel superficially good, the only kind of good I knew, really, and I was becoming quite the fashionista. I still pride myself on my ability to clean up and look foxy, but I haven't really bothered much lately. My new perspective has basically pushed fashion into the far, far background. I've worn the same three outfits over and over for the past month. If I wanted to look nice, I wore heels instead of clogs, and I straightened my hair instead of wearing a bun. But that's about the extent of it. I haven't felt sloppy or slobby. I've been casual, but I've still felt pretty decent about the way I look.
And now I'm packing my suitcases, and I have piles and piles of clothes, and I just feel kind of "meh" about all of them. I mean, I do love my wardrobe, and I'm sure I could really get a kick out of shopping for more new stuff, but it just doesn't matter nearly as much as it once did. And I feel like I could probably put two pairs of jeans, two sweaters, a dress and a couple pairs of shoes in my suitcase and be all set for the next month of wandering the planet.
I think it's going to be a lot easier for me to pack for trips in the future.
Right now, though, packing is a pain in my ass.
When I was depressed, shopping was definitely one of my drugs of choice. It made me feel superficially good, the only kind of good I knew, really, and I was becoming quite the fashionista. I still pride myself on my ability to clean up and look foxy, but I haven't really bothered much lately. My new perspective has basically pushed fashion into the far, far background. I've worn the same three outfits over and over for the past month. If I wanted to look nice, I wore heels instead of clogs, and I straightened my hair instead of wearing a bun. But that's about the extent of it. I haven't felt sloppy or slobby. I've been casual, but I've still felt pretty decent about the way I look.
And now I'm packing my suitcases, and I have piles and piles of clothes, and I just feel kind of "meh" about all of them. I mean, I do love my wardrobe, and I'm sure I could really get a kick out of shopping for more new stuff, but it just doesn't matter nearly as much as it once did. And I feel like I could probably put two pairs of jeans, two sweaters, a dress and a couple pairs of shoes in my suitcase and be all set for the next month of wandering the planet.
I think it's going to be a lot easier for me to pack for trips in the future.
Right now, though, packing is a pain in my ass.
