jianantonic | (no subject)

The past couple of days have been, for lack of a better description, absolutely necessary. I could say I've had a good time, but the dark cloud of the last 2/4/27 years is still there, and the question of whether or not we can really start over remains unanswered. So it hasn't been a really happy time, but it has been valuable.

Without going into too much detail, I will just leave it at this: things are not perfect. Things are not going to be perfect. But things are good right now, I see no reason things can't be good tomorrow, and I'm cautiously optimistic that things will continue to be good for a while.

I'm still going to LA for the week next week, and when I come back, I'll have about two more weeks here in Portland, and then I will make my way back east for my cousin's wedding and my return to my beloved therapist. Z flies out a day before I do, and I got invited to a party the afternoon after he takes off, so I'm going to go to that. I don't know anyone there, except the hostess, who has been an LJ buddy for several years, though we've never met. I've had pretty phenomenal luck with lj-to-real-life friends in the past, and I'm pretty confident I'll have an awesome time with these folks.

Right now I'm going to try something I've never done before -- I'm going to make pancakes. Max and Veronica made sweet potato pancakes when I was there, and they were pretty much the best thing I've ever put in my mouth, so I wanted to find some of those and make them. Alas, I came up empty on my initial search, but I did get some regular pancake mix, because I figure it can't hurt to practice, and regular pancakes, while not superlatively amazing, are still pretty fucking delicious. So I'm going to give it a shot. Wish me luck!