You know you're getting older when...
Jun. 11th, 2011 10:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jianantonicyou get excited about getting carded. Then again, you were carded.
I get carded all the time...not 100%, probably like 30%, but still enough that it's not rare or weird. But tonight was the first time I ever felt myself get all giddy about it. And then I realized I was giddy about looking young and got all sad because that means I'm not actually young.
I think it's because I noticed my first actual wrinkle on my face today. I was looking in the mirror and there was a crease-like thing that I'd never seen before...and it didn't go away...it seems it's here to stay. I haven't been stressing about it all day, at least not consciously, but I guess my reaction to getting carded betrays my feelings about this new development.
I'm only 28. (I say "only," but in my head it's more like "holy shit where did my 20's go?!) Given the amount of time I spend playing bridge, I am almost always the youngest person around. Shouldn't I have a few more years of feeling patronized for my age before I start feeling emo about how old I am? Sheesh. Can't win.
I get carded all the time...not 100%, probably like 30%, but still enough that it's not rare or weird. But tonight was the first time I ever felt myself get all giddy about it. And then I realized I was giddy about looking young and got all sad because that means I'm not actually young.
I think it's because I noticed my first actual wrinkle on my face today. I was looking in the mirror and there was a crease-like thing that I'd never seen before...and it didn't go away...it seems it's here to stay. I haven't been stressing about it all day, at least not consciously, but I guess my reaction to getting carded betrays my feelings about this new development.
I'm only 28. (I say "only," but in my head it's more like "holy shit where did my 20's go?!) Given the amount of time I spend playing bridge, I am almost always the youngest person around. Shouldn't I have a few more years of feeling patronized for my age before I start feeling emo about how old I am? Sheesh. Can't win.
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Date: 2011-06-12 05:05 am (UTC)I was actually really happy when I turned 30 because it was an accomplishment, like the beginning of a new era when I could finally be respected as an adult. At 31 I started to feel old.
Right now I'm still basking in the glow of the whole wedding thing, but I bet I'm due for some serious aging melancholy. Perhaps even a self-pity breakdown or three. It sucks, because I know it's coming and there's no way to stop it.
I think the way to get over it is to switch your mindset to believe the wrinkles add character, that aging shows achievement. It certainly helps people treat you with more respect. Also, looking at hot older women helps. :)
Side note: Picture is from a party in 2004 when I was still young and hot. I still think I look like that in my mind.